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翻译：歌谣
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第一季 第八集
关键的问题是 你们的决心有多大 The big question is, how aggressive do you want to be?
决心很大 我们不想再浪费时间 Very aggressive. We don't want to lose any more time.
你们试了有两年了 You've been trying for... two years?
加州 洛杉矶
两年零四个月 And four months.
一个月前
我有个程序监测排卵 I have the app monitoring ovulation,
记录体温和粘液水平 taking temperature and mucus levels,
我们据此安排房事 we've been planning and pacing intercourse.
相当浪漫了 It's been very romantic.
可以选择宫腔内或者体外 So we're looking at IUI or IVF.
-宫腔内最简便 -而且不用住院 - IUI is the least invasive. - And outpatient.
宫腔内 IUI...?
没看资料吗 我让你看的 Didn't you read the thing? I told you to read it.
宫腔内人工授精 Intrauterine insemination.
将精子直接输入子宫 The sperm are injected directly into the uterus.
-对 不用住院 -那就先找个吧 - And yes, it's outpatient - Let's start there.
史蒂文 你39岁 You're 39, Steven?
好 我们会检查你精子的数量和活力 Okay, we'll test your sperm for count and motility percentage.
你离下次经期还有多久 莉 And how far away are we from your period, Leigh?
说不准 一周吧 可能十天 It's unpredictable. A week, maybe ten days.
你经期不准 Your cycle's unpredictable?
有问题吗 Is that a problem?
可能有 也可能没有 Possibly, possibly not.
经期以及你的年龄都是影响因素 That and your age are all factors.
过了35岁 会更困难一些 Over 35, the situation becomes more difficult.
但通常都是可以解决的 But very often it's manageable.
不过有可能根据你们的检查结果 But it might be likely that based on your test results,
直接做体外试管 we go straight to in vitro.
能走保险吗 Will Insurance help with that?
多数保险公司不保体外人工授精 Most companies won't cover IVF,
不过通常男性基因检测可以走保险 but very often the genetic testing for the man will be covered.
那还行 Oh, that sounds fair.
好了 史蒂文 什么时候给你检测 All right, so, Steven, when can we schedule your tests?
什么检测 Which tests?
验血做染色体诊断 A blood panel for chromosomal diagnosis,
精子采样 a sample of your semen.
你上一次射精是什么时候 When did you last ejaculate?
一周前 A week.
可能不到 Maybe less.
不 是两周 No, it's two weeks.
当时... When--
那我们重新安排时间吧 We'll need to reschedule it for another time.
过三到五天再来 We need you within three to five days after.
家庭作业 亲爱的 Homework, honey.
我们得谈一下 We gotta talk.
谈什么 About what?
史蒂文 Steve?
史蒂文 Steve!
史蒂文 Steve.
史蒂文 Steve!
对不起 I'm sorry.
-我来… -我能弄好 - I'll just-- - I can fix this.
不要销卡 用卡时通知我就行 No, I don't want to cancel it, I just wanted a usage alert.
下次用卡你们会给我发短信 So you'll text me next time it's used?
好的 谢谢 Okay. Thanks.
他还没用信用卡 He hasn't used the credit card yet.
他用时银行会给我发短信 They're going to send me an alert when he does.
到时可以查到地址 We can get a location from that.
天啊 希望他 God, I hope he...
用自动提款机 而不是把卡卖了换毒品 just tries an ATM and doesn't trade the card for dope.
他知道密码吗 Does he have your PIN?
开什么玩笑 Are you kidding?
那为什么会去用自动提款机 Why would he try an ATM?
不好意思 史蒂文 你有更好的办法吗 I'm sorry, Steve. Do you have a better suggestion?
他拿卡就是为了用的 He took the card to use the card,
他用的话 我们就知道了 and now we'll know if he does.
其实他不用闯进屋的 He didn't have to break the house.
我觉得不是他做的 No, I don't think he did.
我也这么觉得 Me neither.
有人问你意见了吗 西奥朵拉 Someone ask you what you think, Theodora?
抱歉 Sorry.
如果不是卢克 那会是谁 If it wasn't Luke, who was it?
可能是你的孩子 Maybe one of your kids.
对 有道理 Yeah, that makes sense.
应该是我的孩子 It's probably my kids.
也可能是那个家伙 Or maybe it was the guy who just stole a car
偷车吸毒的家伙 to put a needle in his arm.
我担心的不止是这个 I'm worried about a lot more than that.
什么意思 What do you mean?
自杀会影响其他家人 I mean, that suicides can cluster in families,
尤其是双胞胎 especially twins.
如果其中一个自杀 If they lose a twin,
另一个自杀的概率上升 the odds go up.
他可能不打算回家了 He may not be planning to come home.
他会去哪 Where-- Where would he go?
哪里都有可能 He could be anywhere.
他住这里的时候 He was picked up off Mass Ave a few times
去过几次马萨大街 when he was living here.
美沙酮一条街 Methadone Mile.
-那是哪 -南城的马萨大街 - What's that? - Mass Ave, south of downtown.
基本就是露天毒品市场 It's basically an open-air drug market.
我记得 I remember it.
-我去找找看 -浪费汽油 - I'll go look for him. - It's a waste of gas.
-谁知道他在哪 -嗯 我跟你一起去 - He could be anywhere. - Yeah, I'll go with you.
我去行了 先等等 I got this. Just wait a bit.
-看他会不会用卡 -用的话给我打电话 - We'll see if he's using the card. - Call me if he does.
你打算开车来回兜圈 Are you gonna drive in circles?
-指望他站在哪个路口 -可能 不知道 - Hope he's standing on some corner? - Maybe, I don't know.
真的不告诉他们我们看见了什么 We're really not going to tell them what we saw?
妈的 卢克 Damn it, Luke.
我们到底去不去 We going or what?
我只是想帮忙 I just want to help.
孩子 我知道你想帮忙 Look, bud, I know you do,
不过我在用比较强的化学剂 but I'm gonna start using some really strong chemicals down here...
灭鼠灵
不太安全 ...and it just isn't safe.
那我可以帮忙做别的 I can help with something else, then.
这个嘛 Look, pal,
我已经花了不少钱找人帮忙 I've already hired all the help I can afford
赶在夏天结束之前都弄好 just to get everything else finished by the end of summer.
不过有件事我需要你帮忙 I could use your help with something, though.
-是吗 -是的 - Yeah? - Yeah.
过几天你妈要去珍妮特姨妈那里 See, your mom's going to go to your Aunt Janet's in a few days
住一段时间 and stay a bit.
可能一周 Maybe a week.
为什么 How come?
整个夏天她都 Well, you know, she's been cooped up
待在大宅没出去 in this house all summer and...
我知道这事可能不是很有意思 Anyway, I know it's not the most exciting thing, but
不过我真的需要你帮忙 I could really use your help
妈妈不在时 照顾弟弟妹妹们 watching your brother and your sisters while she's away.
好的 Yeah.
好的 没问题 Yeah, I got you.
好的 Okay.
妈 Mom?
你说什么 亲爱的 What do you mean, sweetheart?
你和我一起当然安全 Of course you're safe with me.
妈 Mom.
你没事吧 Are you okay?
在哪 Where...
他们姐弟俩在哪 Where are the twins?
楼下 Downstairs.
好的 Of course.
-你真的没事 -我没事 亲爱的 - Are you sure--? - I'm fine, sweetie. I'm fine.
警告
游戏结束
好的 谢谢 Okay, thanks.
他不在圣家医院 Well, he's-- he's not at Holy Family.
他大概不会一下子吸毒过量 We'll, he's probably not going to instantly OD.
你打算把波士顿的医院都问一遍吗 You're going to call every hospital in Boston? That the plan?
你打算开车到处逛 What, you're going to just drive around,
希望在70万人里刚好遇见他 hope we spot him in a city of 700,000--?
我不是找他 I'm not looking for him.
我在找一辆绿色的破吉普 I'm looking for a beat-up green Jeep with not one,
上面贴着两张安妮·迪芙兰蔻的贴纸 but two Ani DiFranco bumper stickers,
而且是到他以前经常去的地方找 and I'm looking for it where I know he used to score.
总得做点什么 Gotta do something.
没错 Yeah, we do.
那... So, um...
怎么样了 What's going on?
你和莉怎么样了 What's going on with you and Leigh?
什么意思 What do you mean?
我是说你们婚姻生活怎么样 Well, I mean... how's your marriage?
你不是吧 You're kidding, right?
你不住在家 You're not living at home, and
葬礼上我无心留意到 I couldn't help but notice at the funeral--
-你不是真的要问这个吧 -是的 - You aren't seriously doing this. - Well, yeah, I am. I--
天啊 老爸 你太过分了 Jesus Christ, Dad, you're out of line.
我们得在车里待一段时间了 我想着 We might be in the car for a while, and so I thought to myself,
问问儿子和儿媳的情况 有什么问题 "I'm going to ask my son about his life." What's wrong with that?
这样不行 老爸 Doesn't work that way, Dad.
我和你妈结婚15年 Your mom and I were married 15 years.
结婚前在一起五年 Together five before that.
她以前常说 她是风筝我是线 She used to say she was the kite and I was the line.
她说自己活在天上 She was a... creature of the clouds
而我活在地上 and... and I was a creature of the earth.
她说没有我 就没人拴着她了 And she'd say that without me she'd become untethered
她就会飘走 and she would float away up into the...
而离开她 我就会 And then without her, I would just, you know,
就会摔到地上 crash, just drop right down to the ground,
你懂的 and, you know.
但是在一起 But... together...
我们... we...
我们曾分居过 You know, we separated.
你应该不知道 You... You didn't know that, probably.
分居的时候 你才一岁 Briefly, we separated. You were one year old.
我做过最愚蠢的事情 Stupidest thing I ever did.
我说了一些傻话 结果就这样 You know, I made some stupid proclamation and that was it.
两周 Two weeks.
两周 我都不知道 Two weeks. I don't even know
怎么会走到那一步 我只知道我们吵架了 how we got there. I just know we fought.
吵什么我都不知道 I don't know what we fought about,
但后来我冷静下来 but I finally came to my senses, and...
我想 什么玩意儿啊 你个傻逼 I thought, "What the hell, you stupid asshole.
你是不是疯了 What are you, insane?"
于是我回去敲门 So, you know, I came back and knocked on the door,
她应了门 拥抱了我 she answered it, she put her arms around me,
亲了我 眼神原谅了我 然后 she kissed me, she forgave me with her eyes, and...
把你递给我 She handed you to me.
我一手抱着你 一手抱着她 I had you in one arm and her in the other and that was it.
我们和好了 We were back at it.
后来有了谢丽 And Shirley came along and...
从那时起 我们一直夫妻同心 from that moment on, we were on the same team.
虽然偶尔还是会吵架 You know, we still fought sometimes,
但是 but it was...
但不一样了 我们带着爱意吵架 她教我的 it was different. We fought with love. She taught me that.
带着爱意吵架 You fight with love.
当你们 Yeah, when you're...
夫妻同心时 即便吵架时也是一样 You're on the same team even in the middle of a fight.
吵架的时候 During the fight,
会原谅对方 you're... you're forgiven.
没有恐惧 没有危险 非常安全 There's no fear. There's no danger. You're safe.
我真希望你以后也能体会到这点 I hope, really, you get to experience that sometime.
这样 It's a...
这样非常好 It's a beautiful way to be.
我们并不完美 You know, look, we weren't perfect...
但我们总是很宽容 but we were always kind.
努力地爱着彼此 And we loved each other hard.
我今天对她的爱就和当初一样 And I love her today just as much as I did in the beginning.
就像风筝和线 The kite and the line.
真心希望你和莉之间的问题 So whatever you need to fix between you and Leigh...
能够解决 I really hope you do.
还有... And...
没了 我就是想说这些 That's all I... That's all I really wanted to say.
糖果 糖果 Candy, candy, candy, candy!
真不跟我们一起去 Sure you won't come with us?
你们好好玩 You guys have fun.
去吧 妈 拿糖果 Come on, Mom, candy!
给她带点回来 你妈今天很辛苦 We'll bring her back some. Mom's had a very hard day.
别再这样了好吗 Would you stop that?
你不扮没劲队长我还是有点失望 I'm still disappointed you're not going as Captain Lame.
我向上帝发誓 爸 I swear to God, Dad.
糖果 糖果 Candy, candy, candy!
回来后我们再谈好吗 Can we talk when I get back?
怎么谈 你直接回酒店 How? You'll be back at the hotel.
好吧 谢丽 Okay. Okay, Shirl.
别这样 Stop.
-走吧 -把门廊灯关掉 - Let's go. - Turn off the porch light.
今晚我无力应付要糖果的小孩了 I can't handle trick-or-treaters tonight.
我爱你 I love you.
你们好好玩 You guys have fun.
什么情况 What the hell?
抱歉 这里没有糖果 Sorry, no candy here.
灯都关了 Goddamn light's off.
我再给医院打电话看看 I'm gonna call the hospitals again.
-可能他把证件号忘了 -问什么 - Maybe he just forgot his ID. - And ask them what?
有没有看见穿着葬礼服装的瘾君子 If they've seen a junkie in a funeral suit?
他戒毒90天了 他是你弟弟 He's 90 days clean and he's your brother.
他是好人 史蒂文 He's a good man, Steve.
并不互相矛盾 They're not mutually exclusive.
他是我弟 也是瘾君子 He's my brother, but he's a junkie.
这样找不到他的 We're not going to find him like this.
-你不必来的 -我得来 - You didn't have to come. - Yeah, I did.
-真的不必 -我得来 史蒂文 - No, you really didn't. - Yeah, I did, Steve.
他是我儿子 我的... He's my son. You know? My...
如果失去他或你们任何一个 我该怎么办 I don't know what I'd do if I lost him, any of you.
是的 我必须来 Yeah, I had to come.
我不能再失去 I can't... I can't lose...
我不能再失去谁了 I can't lose anyone else.
以后有了孩子你就明白了 One day when you have children, you'll understand that.
我永远不会有孩子 I'm never having children.
那真遗憾 Well, that's... that's a shame.
因为有你们几个孩子是我一生最幸福的事 'Cause you kids are the best thing in my life.
你说的是珍妮特姨妈吧 You mean Aunt Janet's life?
是她养大了你的孩子 对吧 She's the one who raised your kids, didn't she?
-你不了解情况 -你也没跟我说 - You don't know what it was like. - You never told me.
我做的一切都是为了保护你们 Everything I did, I did to protect you.
为了保护我们 我知道 To protect us, I know, yeah.
就像你保护妈那样 Just like you protected mom.
又来了 Here we go.
警察的报告我看了 I saw the police reports.
头骨像西瓜一样碎了 Her skull cracked like a melon--
好了 史蒂文 你怎么就不能 All right, Steve, why don't you just--?
图书室地的毯上到处都是血 There was blood all over the library carpet.
上臂有淤痕 There were bruises on her upper arms
因为有人用力抓她 because someone grabbed her pretty hard.
-好了 史蒂文 -脑后有淤伤 - Okay, Steve... - And a contusion
因为有人把她的头往墙上撞 on the back of her head from being shoved into a wall?
她脚踝扭伤 所以才一瘸一拐 Her ankle was twisted, so she was limping,
全身淤伤 精神抑郁 she was bruised to hell, depressed out of her mind,
没吃药 没治疗 被遗弃了 unmedicated, untreated, and abandoned.
不是这样的 It wasn't like that.
我尽力了 你不知道... I did my best. You have no idea--
你把我们扔上车 把她一个人留下 You threw us in car, you left her there alone,
她从楼梯上跳下来 and she threw herself off the goddamn staircase,
-你这就算是尽力了 -好吧 - and that was your best? - All right, well,
不应该把她一个人留在那房子里 she should not have been left alone in the house--
去他妈的房子 不是房子的问题 是她病了 Fuck the house. It wasn't the house. She was sick.
她精神有病 而那个人 She was sick in her mind, and the one person,
那个应该照顾她的人 the one person that was supposed to take care of her
却丝毫没有帮过她 didn't do a goddamn thing to get her help.
我想她 I miss her.
我想我妈 I miss my mom.
我也想她 I miss her too.
确实很漂亮 哪里找到的 It's certainly beautiful. Where did you find it?
游戏房 The game room.
-什么房 -在楼上 - The what room? - Upstairs.
我觉得刷点油漆 修一下拉门 You know, I think a little paint, maybe fix those doors,
-她会很喜欢的 -她肯定喜欢 - and she might really love it. - I'm sure she will.
知道油漆什么的在哪里吗 So do you know where the paint and stuff is?
-去问问你父亲吧 -问了 他很忙 - Why don't you ask your father? - I did. He's busy.
他说只要没有标记出售 He said if it wasn't tagged for sale,
随我怎么弄 I could do whatever I wanted.
确实没有标记出售 And it's not tagged for sale.
我知道油漆放在哪 Well, I do know where some paint is.
还真是 I thought so.
肯定是波比的 This must have been Poppy's.
波比 Poppy?
波比·希尔 Poppy Hill.
威廉的太太 She was William's wife.
她是疯子 She was insane.
嗯 看起来挺野的 Yeah, she looks kind of wild.
不 我是说精神不正常 No, I mean clinically.
他也是 So was he.
威廉小时就被父母送去一个地方 William's parents sent him to an institution when he was a kid.
说是叫私人学校 其实不是学校 They called it private school, but it wasn't a school, though.
只是有钱的父母用于遮羞的地方 It was just a place where rich parents hid their embarrassments.
他们在精神病院相遇 They met in the mental institution.
他们相爱了 They fell in love in an asylum.
她精神失常 She was insane.
你认识她 Did you know her?
认识 Oh, yes.
她老了也一样不正常 She was just as crazy, just older.
不过年轻时确实漂亮 She was a beautiful young woman in her time, though.
毫无疑问 No doubt about that.
如果你真的想给妈妈惊喜 If you really want this to be a surprise for your mom,
我建议别在你房间弄 I'd suggest you don't work on it in your room.
拿好糖果给我走 Just take the fucking candy and go.
挺聪明的 You're very clever.
去别家吧 我真的没心情 How about you try another house? I'm not in the fucking mood!
你到底想干什么 What the fuck do you want?
我来道歉的 I was just coming to apologize.
你吼谁呢 Who are you yelling at?
小屁孩们正... Some fucking kids are...
算了 Forget it.
-等等 -现在别说了 - Wait. - Not now.
-让我解释 -怕是解释不清 - I can explain. - I doubt that.
-你不是该收拾打包吗 -我知道昨晚让人误会 - Shouldn't you be packing? - I know what it looked like last night.
你在和我丈夫亲热 You were making out with my husband.
不 不 其实没有... No. No, there was no actual...
虽然记住的不多了 不过我记得 Okay, so from what I can remember, which isn't a lot actually,
-他把我推开了 -这样就好点了吗 - he pushed me away. - Is that supposed to make this better?
根本不是他 If it wasn't even him.
我没看见他 不是去找他 It wasn't... I didn't see him. It wasn't about him.
你赶紧从我家客房走人吧 It's about you getting out of my guest house
赶紧走 and off my fucking property.
让我把话说完 If you would just let me talk.
你想说什么我无所谓 I don't care what you have to say.
明白吗 走 Don't you understand? Get out!
你不可理喻 知道吗 You are impossible. Do you know that?
对不起 我冒犯你了吗 I'm sorry, have I offended you?
总是当面说什么 You are always throwing it in my face
我住在你家客房 that I live in your guest house.
以后不会了 Won't happen again.
我自己选择住在这里 谢丽 I choose to live there, Shirley.
-和你一起 为了你 -真是感谢你了 - With you, for you. - Oh, I can't thank you enough.
你拒人千里 You ice people out.
-一向如此 -我拒人千里 - You always have. - I ice people out?
那你算是什么 Have you met yourself?
我选择住在这里 为了让你感到温暖 And so I chose to live there to help try and keep you warm.
你真不会道歉 You fucking suck at apologies.
我没必要住你家客房 I don't have to live in your guest house.
我又不是什么浪荡怪人 I'm not some bohemian weirdo.
我是成年人 I'm an adult.
我是个博士 I am a fucking doctor.
你是个婊子 You're a fucking slut.
我只要你知道 I just need you to know
不是凯文的错 他什么都没做 that it wasn't Kevin's fault and he didn't do anything--
轮不到你帮我丈夫说话 Don't you fucking dare defend my husband.
我们一直都在帮你 All of us, all of us are just always helping you
帮你维持你心中完美谢丽的形象 keep up this idea in your head that you're perfect Shirley,
而我们只是一群混蛋搞砸了 and we're just a bunch of fuck-ups fucking up.
-完美的谢丽完美的.... -滚 - Perfect Shirley's perfect fucking-- - Out!
不 No!
你不能这样轰我走 You do not just get to shut me out of your--
你打我的胸 Did you just punch me in the boob?
是的 Yeah.
是的 Yeah!
你亲我丈夫 就是这个下场 If you kiss my husband, that's what you get.
你就要被捶胸 You get punched in the fucking boob.
而且你也要被轰出我家 And you get evicted -from my fucking house.
谢丽 Shirl?
怎么了 What's up?
他们 They...
抱歉 他们 Sorry, they...
查到了 They got a hit.
他在一个加油站刷卡 He used the card at a gas station.
202号公路 阿默斯特东部 202, just east of Amherst.
阿默斯特 Amherst?
地址发短信给我吧 Can you text me the address?
-谢丽 -嗯 - Shirl? - Yeah.
我在听 抱歉 I'm here. Sorry.
好 地址发短信给你 Yeah, I'll... I'll text you the address.
-阿默斯特在… -我知道在哪里 - Amherst is on the way-- - Yeah, I know where it is.
你们留在家里 我们去阿默斯特 You guys are gonna stay there, we're gonna go to Amherst.
我是说 如果在阿默斯特加油 他要去 I'm saying, if he's stopping in Amherst, he's heading--
谢丽 听我说 你们留在家 Shirley, listen to me, you're gonna stay put.
-听见没 -跟他们说刚才发生了什么 - You hear me? - Tell them what happened.
跟他们说刚才发生了什么 Tell them what just happened.
我给你发短信 I'll text you.
只不过是小孩子们在恶作剧 Some fucking kids playing a prank is what happened.
你知道不是 You know it wasn't.
你知道的 You know that.
今晚这种事也不是第一次了 That's not the only thing like that that's happened here tonight.
我想卢克是要去大宅 I think Luke is going to the house.
没错 Of course he is.
该死的大宅 The goddamn house.
奈尔想去的话 It was a good enough spot for Nell,
卢克也想去 it's a good enough spot for Luke.
他一辈子都想做奈尔做的事 He always wanted to do what she did his whole life.
你认为自己明白 You think you know.
其实你不明白 And you just don't, you don't understand.
我最后一次看见妈 Last time I saw Mom,
看着她的眼睛 the look in her eye,
我见过这种表情 I've seen that look.
奈尔这么多年 而卢克从一开始 And Nell over the years, and Luke, from the start,
从小时候他坐在树屋里画鬼开始 from when he'd sit there drawing crazy ghouls in his treehouse,
妈的 我在镜子里看见过这种表情 and, hell, I've seen that look in the mirror.
我们家的病从来没有治疗过 Our family has a disease that's never been treated,
因为听你说鬼屋的鬼故事 because it was easier to listen to your crazy stories
更容易 about an evil house.
你认为自己在镜子里看到了 You think you saw it in the mirror?
所以想不生孩子 That's why you think you'll never have kids?
我知道自己绝不会生孩子 Oh, I know I'm never having children.
因为你认为孩子 Because you think that they'll
会有同样的臆想症 just have the same imaginary sickness?
肯定的 我们都有 They would. We all do.
奈尔有臆想症 忧郁症 Nell was delusional, depressed,
卢克是瘾君子 谢丽是控制狂 Luke's an addict, Shirley is a control freak,
西奥基本上就是一个攥紧的拳头长了头发 and Theo's basically a clenched fist with hair.
全家都在崩溃的边缘 The whole fucking family is on the brink of a breakdown
看见不存在的东西 and seeing things that aren't there,
听见不存在的东西 hearing things that aren't there,
离开大宅后依然如此 and that shit happened after the house.
不是大宅的问题 It's not the house.
是我们的脑子有问题 There's something wrong with our goddamn brains.
所以我永远不会生孩子 So yeah, I'm never having children.
我采取了措施 I made sure.
做了结扎 A vasectomy.
大学毕业就做了 Right out of college.
这个决定是正确的 相信我 And it was the right call, believe me,
因为我从未怀疑过 because if I ever doubted it,
这星期我幻想过的那些鬼扯的事 some of the bullshit I've been hallucinating this week...
你真结扎了 You really did?
嗯 Yeah.
认识莉之前 Before you met Leigh?
孩子 Boy.
你没告诉她 You didn't tell her?
你没告诉她 You didn't tell her.
没 No.
她想要孩子 我知道 She wanted kids, I knew that.
我一直想 晚些告诉她 现在时机不对 I kept thinking, "I'll tell her later, now's not the time."
但后来我们就订婚了 后来结婚了 But then we were engaged, and then we were married,
然后我们就试着怀孩子 怀不上她很郁闷 and then we were trying and she was so upset it wasn't working.
我说不出口 I couldn't say.
我不能生 我的基因 I can't. My genes.
我的基因很烂 莉 "My... My genes are rotten, Leigh."
所以我.. So i... i...
我没跟她说 I didn't tell her.
我以为自己是好心 真的 And I thought I was being kind, I really thought that.
看见没 我们都是疯子 See, we're all fucking crazy.
疯子克兰一家 The crazy Crains.
疯病已经害死家里两个人 This sickness already killed two of us,
今晚可能再死一个 might kill a third tonight.
差不多 That's...
死了一半 almost half.
家里几乎死了一半 Be almost half of us.
你还要继续说风筝和线的故事吗 So, you want to tell me more about the kite and the line?
或者.. Or just...
说说我这丈夫当得多失败 Just tell me what a shitty husband I was.
说吧 Go ahead.
真对不起 I'm so sorry.
真的 I'm just...
真的很对不起 儿子 I'm just so sorry, son.
你弄的 You did this?
真漂亮 你自己弄的 This is beautiful. You did this by yourself?
我觉得能哄你开心 Thought it might cheer you up.
爸说你 Dad said you've been...
什么 他说什么 What? What did he say?
我只是 I'm... I just...
我知道你要去度个小假 I know you're taking a little vacation.
我想哄你开心 I wanted to cheer you up.
亲爱的 Oh, sweetie.
你要走多久 How long are you going to be gone?
不会很久 Oh, not long.
不会很久 亲爱的 Not long, honey.
我只是想离开一阵 仅此而已 好吗 I just need a little time away. It's nothing more than that, okay?
好的 Okay.
太棒了 This is perfect.
谢谢你 我很喜欢 Thank you. Thank you! I love it.
妈 Mom?
宝贝 Oh, baby.
真对不起 Oh, I'm so sorry.
这是张近照 他应该穿着西装 This is an older picture. He would have been wearing a suit.
大约一小时前 他进来过吗 About an hour ago. Did he come in?
-对 应该是来过 -是吗 - Yeah, I think so. - Yeah?
他有没有说或者做什么奇怪的事 Did he say anything weird or do anything... ?
他给吉普车加满了油 He filled up his Jeep.
-绿色吉普车 -没错 - Green Jeep? - That's right.
然后装了几桶油 大概五桶 And then he filled up some cans, like, five cans.
你说五桶油 Five cans, you say?
-是他吗 -对 - Was it him? - Yeah.
你干吗 What are you doing?
-我来开 -不行 - I'm driving. - No, this...
我租的车 This is my rental.
天啊 爸 慢点 Jesus, Dad, slow down.
他买了五桶汽油 他不是去自杀 He bought five cans of gasoline. He's not going to kill himself,
-他是要去烧了大宅 -也是解脱 - he's going to burn the house down. - That's a relief.
他现在非常危险 He's in more danger now than he's ever been,
如果他想烧大宅 大宅会自卫 and if he tries to burn it, it will defend itself.
我说的话你一个字都没听到 You really didn't hear a word I said.
听到了 现在轮到你听我说 I did. Now you're gonna listen to me.
很多事你不知道 There's a lot you don't know.
我以为如果你们不知道 I thought I could keep you kids safe
就能保你们安全 二十年来 if you didn't know, but for 20 years
我都锁着门 I've been holding the door closed,
因为我知道门的另一边有魔鬼 'cause I knew there were monsters on the other side,
明白吗 do you understand me?
完全不明白 Not even a little.
我们家就像大宅没吃完的晚餐一样 Our family is like an unfinished meal to that house,
而你弟现在送上门去了 and your brother is walking right back into...
大宅是我们的世界中最危险的地方 That house is the most dangerous place in the world for all of us,
对你尤其如此 but especially for you.
-对我 -是的 你 - For me? - Yeah, you.
什么 为什么 What? Why?
因为我看过你的书了 Because I read your book,
你最不应该 and you are the last person
最不应该去大宅 that should ever step foot in that house
因为你写的那些东西 because of what you wrote and how you wrote it.
你觉得自己知道看见了什么 You think you know what you saw?
-你觉得自己知道自己写了什么 -什么 - You think you know what you wrote? - What?
我知道你看见了鬼 I know you saw a ghost.
第19章 Yeah, chapter 19.
嗯 Yeah.
你帮你妈油漆梳妆柜的那个小故事 That little story about the vanity you painted for your mother.
那是一个患有精神分裂症的女人 That's a story about a schizophrenic woman
在镜子前发病的故事 having a manic episode in front of a mirror.
你并不懂自己写的东西 You don't understand what you wrote--
不 我看见妈把镜子打碎 No, I saw Mom smash that glass
-毫无原因 -再往前 - for no reason. - Before that.
回到开始那点 Go to the beginning, that little bit,
你为什么去弄那个梳妆柜 about the vanity and why you did it.
你在游戏房发现梳妆柜 You found the vanity in the game room.
然后你从修钟人的身旁走过 And you walked by the man repairing the clock,
然后看见你妈在他们姐弟俩房间 and then you saw your mother looking into the twins' room,
盯着空床看 staring at their empty beds.
典型的解离性人格分裂阶段 她病了 Textbook dissociative episode. She was not well.
不 不是她 No, no, not her.
那个修钟的人 The man repairing the clock.
他怎么了 What about him?
知道什么是"参考点"吗 Do you know what "witness marks" are?
是伤痕 They're scars.
钟内部的细小痕迹 Little marks inside the clock,
擦伤 划线 缺块 scrapes, lines, divots,
从工具 齿轮 from tools, gears,
和钟上掉下的东西造成的 pieces removed from the clock.
这些是修理过钟表的 They're basically evidence of repairs
基本证据 that have been done to the clock
显示出钟的状况 and what the clock was.
而对于古董钟 xxxAnd with antique clocks,
几乎没有维修记录 you almost never have a repair record,
所以得学会解读参考点 so you have to learn how to read the witness marks,
才能够了解钟的维修记录 so you can understand what was done to the machine
怎样才能走得准 and how it's meant to function.
参考点讲述出钟的故事 Witness marks tell the story of the piece,
如果知道怎样解读 if you know how to read them.
你想说什么 What are you trying to say?
搬去大宅之前 I had that clock evaluated by a professional
我找专业人士对钟进行评估 before we even moved into the house.
当时只是想知道钟的历史和价值 I just wanted to know its history, know its value.
那座钟从60年代起就没被碰过 That clock hadn't been touched since the '60s.
你最后找了一群工人去 You hired a slew of workers toward the end...
我没碰那座钟 Not for that clock, I didn't.
如果找人的话 要找专家 No, and if I had, it would have taken a specialist.
世界上没几个人知道怎么弄 There's only a handful in the world who know how to do it right,
而且会拿回去修 and they take it off-site.
没人碰过那座钟 没有修钟人 No. No one touched that clock. There was no man there,
没有穿着旧工装裤 留着八字胡的修钟人 and certainly not one in old overalls with a handlebar mustache.
没有那个人 That man wasn't there.
你肯定是忘了 You probably just forgot.
你以为自己在写发疯的妈妈 You know, you think you're writing about your crazy mom,
发疯的弟弟在树屋里画鬼脸 your crazy brother making scary faces in the treehouse.
你看见了参考点 但不会解读 You see the marks, but you don't know how to read them.
我从没给你们搭过树屋 I never built you kids a treehouse.
什么 卢克总在里面玩 What? Luke was in there all the time.
我经常去喊他吃饭 I used to go fetch him for dinner
我们很快就换了房子 We were there flipping a house.
我们在那大概八周的时间 We were gonna be there maybe eight weeks.
我哪有时间 How would I even have the time
给你们搭树屋 to build you kids a goddamn treehouse?
-可能原来就有 -没有树屋 -Maybe it was already there. - There was no treehouse.
到了之后 你自己看 Now, when we get there, you can have a look,
但我必须告诉你 你妈没有生病 but I have to tell you something: your mother, she was not sick.
她没有发疯 妹妹没有 She wasn't crazy, and neither was your sister,
弟弟没有 你也没有发疯 neither is your brother, neither are you.
这星期你看见的东西 Whatever you saw this week,
对不起 现在要说给你听这些 and I'm very sorry you have to be taking all this in right now,
但你必须听进去 but you have to.
明白吗 必须这样 Do you understand me? You have to,
这关系到你弟的性命 because your brother's life depends on it.
大宅是我们的世界中 That house is the most dangerous place
最危险的地方 in the world for all of us,
所以我让你妹妹们待在家里 and that's why I told your sisters to stay put.
你觉得她们会听吗 You really think they will?
你觉得他... Do you think he's... ?
就是 You know...
像奈尔一样跑去那里 going there like Nell went there?
比如去自杀 Like going to kill himself?
不知道 I don't know.
不会 No.
我想不会 I guess I don't.
我不完美 你知道的 I'm not perfect, you know.
我知道 I know.
真的 I'm really not.
说吧 告诉我 So go ahead, tell me.
再试一次 Try again.
我和老爸在你办公室 Dad and I were in your office,
永远之家在地上 and the forever house was on the floor,
我们听见桌子下面有声音 and we heard a noise under the desk--
不是这个 这个你说过 Not that. You already told me that.
我喝得烂醉 I was really drunk.
-天啊 西奥 -灯灭了 - Swear to God, Theo-- - And the lights went out
我们在楼下的时候 while we were down there, and I...
我看不见 一片漆黑 couldn't see. I was in the dark.
我整晚都是那个样子 I mean, like I was in the dark
整个晚上 我需要... that whole night, and I just needed...
我需要... I... I needed...
我看不见他 I couldn't see him,
不知你能不能懂 if that makes any sense.
怎么说呢 算了 You know what? Never mind.
-我是想告诉你... -当我没问 - I'm trying to tell you-- - Forget I asked.
你不知道我的情况 You just don't know what I'm dealing with.
我们都有情况 We've all been dealing,
但最好不要上别人老公 and we somehow managed not to try to fuck each other's spouses--
不是这个意思 真的 Hey, that's not what this was about. It just isn't.
那你醉了 So, you were drunk,
-这样就没事了吗 -就是这样 - and that's supposed to be okay? - I'm telling you.
我不知道为什么让你一起来 I don't even know why I let you come with me.
前一晚我摸了奈尔的尸体 I touched Nell's body the night before.
你是不是有病 The fuck is wrong with you?
你就是不听我的话 Why don't you listen?
-我不... -我在跟你解释 - I don't-- - I'm telling you.
-我一直在跟你解释 -我不想听你的借口 - I'm trying to tell you. - I don't need to hear your excuses...
-不是借口 -也不想听你胡扯 - I'm not making excuses. -...or your bullshit.
你没事吧 是她 Are you okay? That was her!
是她 是她 That was her! That was her!
你看见了吗 谢丽 Did you see that, Shirley?
你到底信不信 Do you fucking believe that?
你应该知道我为什么会这样 You ought to know why I did it.
我摸奈尔是因为我必须得知道 I touched Nell because I had to know.
你知道我的意思 You know what I'm talking about.
别装不知道 Don't pretend that you don't.
你知道我摸别人会怎么样 You know what happens when I touch people.
你一直都知道 A part of you knows, it always has.
我必须得知道 I had to know and I...
我摸了她 I touched her.
我没有 And I felt...
感觉 nothing.
没有 Just nothing.
然后扩散到我全身 And it spread, it spread everywhere in me,
最终我自己什么感觉都没有了 this nothing, until I couldn't feel anything anymore.
像是进入了黑暗 I was just this dark,
空旷的黑洞 empty black hole.
我努力想填满它 努力想逃出来 And I tried to fill it up, I tried to fill me back up,
我给崔茜打电话 她立刻来了 而我还是没感觉 and I called Trish and she came right away and I felt nothing.
守灵时我也没有感觉 And then I tried to mourn at the wake and I felt nothing,
于是我不停喝酒 但是没用 and so I drank and I drank, and nothing worked.
我什么感觉都没有 谢丽 I couldn't feel anything, Shirley.
摸了她的皮肤后 我感觉不到 After I touched her skin, I couldn't feel...
任何事了 anything.
然后我们在地下室 灯灭了 And then we're in the basement and the lights go out.
我看不见 And I can't see.
感觉不到 And I can't feel.
我就像漂浮在虚无的海洋中 And I'm just... I'm just floating in this ocean of nothing,
我想这难道就是死亡 and I wonder if this is it, if this is what death is,
就待在黑暗之中 just out there in the darkness,
只有黑暗 麻木与孤独 just darkness and numbness and alone,
我想她是不是这种感觉 and I wondered if that's what she felt
妈是不是这种感觉 and that's what mom feels,
只有麻木和孤独 and it's just numb and nothing and alone.
如果我们都是这样呢 What if that's what it is for all of us
当那一刻到来时 when the time comes?
然后突然灯亮了 他就在旁边 And then the lights came on and there he was, and I...
我没看见是他 我没看见 I didn't see him. I didn't see him.
他是黑暗中的一道光 He was the light in the darkness.
他是海洋中的救生船 He was a life preserver in the ocean.
我抓住他 因为我必须得有感觉 I just... I reached for him because I had to feel something.
任何感觉都行 I had to feel anything.
而我没看见他 And I didn't see him.
我没看见他 没看见 I didn't... I didn't see him. I didn't see him.
我没看见他 I didn't see him!
他阻止了我 阻止了我 And he stopped me. He stopped me.
他抓住我的手说不行 He took my hands, and he said no,
然后我看见他了 后来你就进来了 and then I saw him, and then you walked in.
天啊 不过我真的很高兴 God, I'm so glad I did it, though.
因为起作用了 Because it worked.
天啊 起作用了 Oh, God, it worked.
我又开始有感觉了 I started feeling things again,
我感到羞耻 悲伤 and I felt... I felt shame, and I felt grief,
我感到害怕 and I felt... scared.
我真的很害怕 I felt so fucking scared
我怕失去仅剩的一个姐妹 that I was gonna lose the only sister that I had left.
而且我 And I...
说实话 我必须这么做 因为总比没感觉好 Honestly, I had to do it, because it felt better than nothing.
虽然是很羞耻 That thorough fucking shame
比可怕空洞的虚无要好得多 was so much better than that horrible, empty nothing.
我不能 谢丽 I can't... Shirley, please.
我真的 I am... I am so...
真的很抱歉 I am so, so, so sorry.
真的很抱歉 I'm so sorry.
求你了 Please, just please.
一 二 三 四 One, two, three, four,
五 六 七 five, six, seven.
一 One,
二 三 two, three,
四 五 four, five,
六 six...
妈妈 mom